Aikaan And Faris Bonding Despite Aikaan’s High Self Esteem – Episode 5
The weather was colder today and it was raining outside. Like every other night, Rushaan rolled up in Aikaan’s bed and asked, ” tell me a story Aikaan “. Aikaan wasn’t in the mood so she asked her sister to sleep without listening to the story tonight and promised her that she will tell her two stories tomorrow night. Rushaan sleepily nodded and went back inside her room.
It was December 20th and the weather couldn’t be colder than these days in Oakville. Due to heavy rain and cold weather schools, universities, and high schools were also closed for 2 months. Everyone was at home and the only time Aikaan used to step outside her house was in the morning.
For her Morning walk. She had not seen faaris ever since she last texted her and turned her cell phone off at his text, neither he texted her again. It’s been almost a week and Aikaan kept thinking about faaris, unwantedly but she did she was thinking about him without regret and result. She was curious that why had he stopped texting, has he walked away from love when she had her contact number, and why he did show up in the park.
Out of her own high self-esteem, she didn’t text him. Not even once but tonight she was really anxious and she held her cell phone twice to text him and then threw it back on the bed. Now the third time she finally texted him.
Faaris: (Hey Stanger.)
Aikaan: (Just wanted to know if you are okay?)
Faaris: (So you are again giving me mixed signals!)
Aikaan: (What mixed signals are you talking about?)
Faaris: (why do you care if I am okay?)
Aikaan: Because I am a human. Humanity exists!
Faaris: can we at least just talk like humans then? I won’t ask you to be friends because I already know your answer. Your High Self Esteem.
Aikaan: Why should we even talk?
Faaris: Why not? We are neither on good terms or bad. We are really not anything so why not just talk, why are you letting your high Self Esteem in between our relationship.
Aikaan: I’m sleepy goodnight. (Aikaan turned her cell phone off and closed her eyes.) She knew she is walking away from love
Today she saw Faaris already there in the park. He was looking really handsome. He was wearing a grey tracksuit with white trainers and he looked really nice. Aikaan ignored him and started walking on the track when faaris started walking with her.
Aikaan: What?? Walk separately. Not with me (Aikaan was really shy and was feeling strange around him today.)
Faaris: I love this spot in this park look it’s really peaceful and beautiful. ( Faaris looked at Aikaan for a moment.)
Faaris: You know the most beautiful part of us is I wasn’t even ready or looking for anything, any relationship or anything when I found you and changed my mind completely.
Aikaan: There’s no Us. (Aikaan felt strange and her cheeks were all red like something is burning inside her face)
Faaris: Yes okay.
Aikaan: Why do you even put up with me?
Faaris: Because you are fire and I’ve been cold all my life till now…
(Aikaan started walking the opposite way and left the place without a say. She was burning although the temperature today was minus 5 degrees Aikaan was feeling like flames are lit inside her. She was feeling this strange feeling of being liked and the way faaris looked at her right through her it made her more nervous. She just left the park and went home straight.)
Faaris was really happy today. He finally started talking to Aikaan despite her high self-esteem. She finally started replying to him although she doesn’t talk much she at least started talking. He brought chocolates for Leila today. He used to bring something home always when he was happy and today he was happily doing house chores. He was helping his nanny and she could also clearly see the happiness on his face.
He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.”
― Bob Marley
(Aikaan was reading a book sitting beside her fireplace when she shockingly thought that everything she reads these days is specially written for her, keeping her in the mind everyone writes. She felt that these books, she has read most of them before as well but her understanding of them has become different. Earlier these words never hit her like now. Anyway she closed the book and went into the kitchen to help her mother in making dinner.)
Adam and his family never showed up. Aikaan and his family were humiliated in front of such a big crowd. Aikaan kept calling his number but he never answered. The person she loved with all her heart, who was the first love of his life and she gave him everything she could. All the compassion, love, feelings, her soul belonged to him. She kept thinking that he and his family might have met some accident or something bad would have happened otherwise it can’t happen.
After all the guests had gone back to their house Aikaan ran to his father and requested him to visit Adam’s place for once because she truly believed that something bad has happened otherwise it can’t happen that they don’t show up today. Her father couldn’t see tears in her eyes so he agreed and in the same dress, her engagement dress she went to see Adam at his house. ( It seemed that he walked away from love )